A Letter to my Pain………

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Good morning pain…..actually there is nothing “good” about it……..and yet we meet again. You’re such a self-centered one aren’t you? You’re always thinking about yourself. You have no regard for me or my needs. You don’t care that I was finally sleeping soundly. Your desires needed to be met so you just callously woke me up because you demanded to be heard.

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I don’t understand you. Why are you so incredibly selfish? And your methods! They are sadistic. Instead of gently waking me up you have to poke me and sting me so that I am jolted awake. Keeping me from my much needed rest is just not enough for you. I hear you laughing at me as I walk the floor trying to get feeling back in my legs and feet. Your merciless, numbing presence is despicable and yet you continue to taunt and laugh at me.

bosshate_hateyouI’m a pretty peaceful guy and can’t say I “hate” most anything in my life, but God forgive me I HATE you! You are mean and cruel. You only think of yourself and could care less about anything but manifesting your presence in my life. You never leave me alone. I just want some peace and quiet for a change but NO! You just can’t let me be for one moment! You are so incredibly annoying!

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You underestimate me though. I’m stronger than you. You think you are so cute. You sit there with your smug little jabs and pokes and you think you will conquer me. You think you will keep at me over and over until I cave in and let you win. NEVER! Go ahead. Keep taunting. Keep laughing! That will only make me stronger. I will rise above. You will not win. Eventually , I pray you will give it up and get tired of the game. If not, go ahead. I dare you. Try to take me down. I’ve been down this road with you before.  You did not win then and you will not win now.  

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Yes the battle is difficult. There are times I want to give up and say you win. It is over. But that is what you want. That would make you the victor and that is what keeps driving me to keep going. I have control over my life ultimately, NOT you! It is up to me to “take you out!” So yes, I will rise above once more and defeat you where you live. Because in the end, I AM stronger than you. You may have won this battle. But ultimately I will win the war!!!!! 

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About dansarc

If you enjoy reading about things that inspire you, things that make you giggle, enjoy uplifting music videos, love your pet and beautiful scenery then you have come to the right place. I have recently been diagnosed with a chronic illness and am trying to take one day at a time fitting that into my already crazy life. Come along on my journey as I relay what I have learned along the way. Some of it can be funny and some not so much. Grab a cup of coffee and get your readers on as we travel this road together. Be sure to press that "Like" button if you see something you enjoyed. I'd also love your feedback so feel free to leave me a comment. If you're having a good time and would like to join me again be sure to "Follow" me as well. I'd love to have you!!! I am a dedicated husband and father, diagnosed with Sarcoidosis and doing whatever it takes to get through each day with as much dignity as possible. I do not know what tomorrow brings but I do know who brings tomorrow. Strong faith and a love for Christ and my family is what gets me through each day with a smile on my face. One day, one hour, one minute at a time.....................
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