I have recently gone back to work after a considerable amount of time being out due to my illness. It has not been an easy road. I have spent a lot of time this week in pain. I have spent far too much time not only experiencing it, but focusing on it, struggling with it, and complaining about it.
It is so easy to think or say the words “others have it so much worse than me.” Easy to say when you aren’t right in the throes of it all. When you are in pain, however, true PAIN, it is harder to buy into the phrase! As I was sitting staring at my computer the other day though, again in so much pain I could hardly even concentrate on what I was doing, it suddenly hit me head on. I got that image of Christ on the cross.
For years we have seen those images in the movies of Jesus on the cross. However, so much of the time, Hollywood seems to have romanticized the image. It made it difficult to honestly get a feel for what that was like. Until “The Passion of the Christ” that is. This movie made Jesus’ suffering real. Those images will forever be etched into my memory. Sealed into my very eyes for all eternity.
As I suffered with my pain this week, people rallied around me. I had gentle hands on my shoulders and was told to take it easy. People asked me if they could get me a chair. I experienced a constant show of support and understanding. My thoughts again returned to Jesus. When He was experiencing the horrific pain He was suffering, instead of support and love, He was being spat upon, mocked, and ridiculed. I was honestly, in that moment humbled at what the Lord had done for us. Tears welled in my eyes. Not because of the aching, stinging pain I was experiencing, but because of the pain Christ suffered for us on the cross.
James 1:2 says “Consider it pure Joy when you are faced with trials of many kinds……” Pure Joy? Are you serious? How can I consider this pain “pure joy?”And yet, this is what scripture says. So, in faith and honor of our Blessed Savior, I shall think of Him first and how He freely gave His life for me. It won’t be easy and again, words are easy to say but the next time I am suffering with the pain of my disease I will think on these things as I suffer and once again focus on what Jesus did on that cross and how He suffered for me and “Consider it pure Joy!”