I had a dream last night. It started out as a pleasant enough dream but ended up as somewhat of a terrifying nightmare………
I was sitting in a dark theater with my childhood family. I was with my parents and my siblings but we were all adults. I remember the production we were watching kept changing and soon none of it made any sense to us. We were all discussing how strange things were getting so decided to leave. Many other people were doing the same and I remember getting separated from the rest of my family. I did catch a glimpse of my mother however, so continued following her.
As I walked on, my mother got further and further away. I could barely make out anything more than the back of her head. I called out to her but when she turned around, I saw that it wasn’t her after all! I had been following the wrong person. She had lead me down the wrong way. Suddenly it hit me. I was all alone. I had no idea where I was. The people I counted on, who had always been there were just…..gone! I did not know where to turn. I had no idea where to go. I tried to read signs, to get an idea of which way to proceed, but honestly, when it came right down to it, I had no real clue what to do next.
I tried to find my way out of this huge building not knowing exactly how I was going to do it and then suddenly, just like that, I was out. However, I then realized I would have to locate where we had parked the car. No matter which road I walked down or which alley I ducked into however, I just ended up on another street of unfamiliar buildings or construction sites. I had not paid any attention to where we parked the car or how we had gotten into the theater. I simply followed along and relied on my family to get me to where I was going.
Now that I was on my own. I was lost! I suddenly realized I was no longer a grown man either. I was a small child. A small child who was lost and alone and didn’t have a clue of what I was to do next. It was a horrible scary feeling! I started to cry and then began to pray. It was then that I woke up.
After I woke up and was soaking in the fact that this had been a dream, I thankfully tried to go back to sleep. As I slowly drifted off however, I found myself pondering what it all meant. So many times in this life I think we can feel lost and confused like watching that production in my dream. None of it makes any sense. Soon we can find ourselves getting caught up in following the wrong path. Like the person I was in the dream, following after that person I thought to be my mother only to find out she was not, we too can get caught up following the wrong person. The person who ultimately leads us astray.
We want to be part of the crowd and sometimes in desiring that, we just follow along and never really have a sense of where we are going. Like in my dream, we find ourselves in a place without knowing how we got there. Ultimately, we also find we have no idea how to find our way back out of the mess our lives have become either.
This is when we need to become child like once again. Like the little boy I had now become in my dream, we need to allow the tears to flow. We need to humble ourselves before the Lord and cry out to God and He will make a way.
He will take us by the hand and lead us out of whatever we have allowed ourselves to get into. He will lead us out and make us new. All we have to do it ask Him. He is always there. He will never leave us or forsake us. There are not many things in this life we can count on. And the world can make us cold and jaded. We must let the torments of the world fade away. We need to cast our cares on Him and ask for Him to free us, cleanse us and make us whole. This can be difficult but it does not have to be so. Not if we humble ourselves and ask “With the heart of a child.”